The Quest

I supposed to let it rest and I thought I'm done fuming with my own sentiments. But yesterday after I read KE's  final announcement of HJ formally dropping out of the CC drama, I can't help not to feel the same frustration and a rush of disgust over me yet again towards the broadcasting network whom I personally  made responsible for suppressing to air my most anticipated drama and to whom I wanted to vent all my anger of frustration!!..Every HJ fan has been anticipating, hoping that the drama will hit our small screen eventually.We are longing for Hyunjoong's drama and after seeing all the photo stills from CC and Hyunjoong's effort to justify his role by rebuilding his body , taking lessons with martial arts, so fort and so on, rejecting it's broadcast airing is like for us having a taste of something we craved for and eventually denied to have the whole lot of it!!And it's infuriating somehow. I try to make some sense out of those reasons explained on how and why it can't be aired.And I find it all just some sort of lame excuse such as~.. "the violence in the drama is considered inappropriate.." My goodness, and how much more violence the drama has, compared to what we witness happening around us??In reality??.And as far as I noticed there's always this forwarning method of advisory to rate the viewers in every drama we intend to watch.We'll just have to be responsible on how we take the scenes ourselves,right??

Now, considering the explanation given that the storyline has something in it that is detrimental to the government~(??,, 'gotten read  from media release articles..) Perhaps in some point those broadcasting network are just being sensible when political issue is a factor. But what I just don't get somehow is, isn't all the kdrama we watch are all but fictional??..Isn't that CC is basically from a manga book that sold million copies in SK?. ( Do correct me if I'm wrong..).. Maybe my way of understanding is insufficiently accurate with the facts. And this side of me being a fan who cannot simply disregard the fact that we wont be seeing Hyunjoong as "Baek Mir" anymore is making me feel just totally sad..I don't care if I may sound immature or childish here.I am still sulking & I swear I wont be watching "Iris 2" in KBS or might as well completely switch to watching Jdrama instead,.Just to appease myself,.hmp!!.I only wanted to see Hyunjoong in a drama again and this Baek Mir character is what we all have been eagerly looking forward to see. Why does it happen that it becomes difficult for us to have this longed wish to come true?? Disappointments. For crying out loud! 

                                

On the other side I also consider what Hyunjoong might be feeling in regards to his drama turned of events. For all we know Hyunjoong is the humblest man.He is the kind who never ever want a conflict with anyone.  But as a man with a good heart he certainly be feeling sorry for the entire production and crews whom he'd been working along with the filming.He's probably not minding much of his own disappointment but to those around him. He's considerate, we're all aware of that side of him.He acknowledged everyone's hard work .It must be burdening him that the drama will never be materialize and everyone's effort went all to waste.But it cannot be helped when there are things that is beyond their control.No matter how hard they try to submit themselves to what was being required for them to do.Being rejected in the end is something that hurts!.As for the fans like me, we're hurt too and disappointed. :(

But these occurrences over HJ's failed drama will never in the least dampen our spirit. As the saying goes "if one door closes another one opens for you~" we only need to get in and move on.....

"the look that says...."Everything's gonna be fine~~don't worry :).."

His quest for the drama might not be an easy path to thread.Obstacles are always present along his way but he welcomes the challenge with strong determination. And his positive attitude in dealing with every circumstances is how  it helps us to handle our own worries at this rate.^^.So as long as he's alright.We have nothing to worry about. He must be considering us, his fans a lot all the time.In return we can only give him our endless support. "Nothing change, we will always be together.." as what he tries to convey in his updated photo recently....

늘 변함 없이 언제나 함께해요..
nothing has changed, we will always be together..

Here's an english trans of what Hyun Joong talked in Osaka...Thanks so much to Lafone ^^
1/ An English Translation of what Hyun Joong talked on the 2nd day of Osaka:

"Everyone faces difficulties sometimes in life. In case I have such hard time in future even it may be tiny thing or something a bit difficult, if you and I respect and need each other, nothing will be so hard. I know that having read the articles via internet, many of you worried about me." 

"But I think that it is not a big issue from my viewpoint. I would say that because of that, now I can have this Japan tour, right ? "

"So, I always think in a positive way, which, I believe, will bring me only luck (good news, good opportunities, and so on). In future as well, there is nothing except for this (live) what I can do. I will not do anything except for this. So I hope that you will watch myself in a long term.
Looking at the fan in the front row with the picture of Hyun Joong’s Debut, “Wanted” on the board, Hyun Joong asked the camera staff to that board to the audience on the screen. He said “Looking at this picture, I remembered that how young I was and fair-skinned. During the trainee, I was much skinned. “ He also added, “ Eight years have passed since the debut. I will work much harder than now. It may not be visible day by day, but you will be able to see the growth of myself in ten years. I hope that you will watch myself to grow in a long term. "

 2/ Hyun Joong's Message shown on the screen at the end of each Unlimited Live

"In order to fulfill my dreams,I think that I have been running through without any rest. Looking back the path I ran through till now, it was a long long way."

"It seems that I had been looking just ahead of me.
However, I think that I have to walk the future path which I cannot see how it will be, looking around well with deliberate steps.If you hold hands with me and walk together, I think that the road I walk from now on will be much refreshing one.
When I feel hard and tiresome, if you, who always believe in and love Kim Hyun Joong, will reach out your hands, I will never release them."
"Shall we try to walk ? Slowly, without any hurry.

＊ During the talk session in Saitama, he said that he “cannot release your hands” ,in stead of “ I will never release your hands “ .

   CREDITS :lafone (@lafone0606) http://www.twitlonger.com/show/kviqfe

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Hyunjoong said we don't have to worry for him due to the drama.Well, to be honest I'm in the least to worry myself about him.He's a fighter, and one cannot simply put a good man down. With my own perception of Hyunjoong , in every failure he gets, it only requires another good measure of effort to work even harder and take the challenge whatever it takes..A "never say die" attitude~ ^__^..

Now that I'm done with my ranting over CC I will now not just put it to rest but bury it deep down somewhere away from my memory..Besides there's certainly be another drama meant for HJ. Could be a better one than CC..( ' weird~~me, feeling regretful at the same time..sigh...)

On the brighter side, my fave man in the world is now advancing to another part of the world.
Brazil and Peru~~"Kim Hyun Joong is coming to you!!"..Give him a loud cheer everyone,ajah!!
KIM HYUN JOONG, Fighting!!